【一千零一夜】

一千零一夜
送出一千零一個 Messages
感懷一千零一個世代裡的
一千零一段情事…

  ── 記憶是不是在冬眠
       往事是不是已淡忘
       迷途是不是成宿命
       情愛的追尋
       是不是永不止息？

敏感的浪子的心呀
深深蝕刻在一千零一個往生裡…

【照影】

— To a girl who reaches me in so many aspects of my life —

妳從節日的祝福中走來
帶著一種熟悉的神色－－

  春日的花顏
  還有纖細的情愫
  也是古早就存在的嗎？

而妳只是悄然的
用詩詞，用畫筆，
用一切我曾熟知的
細細重述那演化之前
一幅幅共振的歷史

於是我看見自己的影子
帶著節日的祝福緩緩走來
笑傲江湖的豪氣裡
我看見一顆溫暖善良的心
當然還有那頑皮與慧黠－－

 「就像這樣－－ 
   浪漫的但是要準確
   超格的但是要真實…」

呵！原來就是這種熟悉－－
那一切撼動著妳心靈的
也正同樣感動著我
同樣的頻率
同樣的心情…

於是－－
在千里的迴音之間
古早的一盞燈精確地點亮
沉睡的熟悉於是復甦
在一度迷失的影子裡

— 2/14/1999 —

【Holed Fence】

Once upon a time he was a nice guy
A guy who thought he had good idea to share
To share with uncontrollable generosity

Yet for so many times his friends were hurt
Again and again, though unintentionally
Thirty-six years that he took to realize
"A verbal wound is as bad as a physical one"
That the holes he punched will never seal
The hearts, never heal

Yet "the fensce will never be the same"
The roses all fallen and friends all gone
The only thing that had left ---
A fence with many holes

--- 9/10/1998 ---

【夜夢與容】

寂秋的夜裡
妳忽從久滯的惡夢中醒來
驚懼中妳感覺有人在一旁佇立

─ 昏黃的月色裡
   躺著妳疲憊的歷史
   妳說妳好累
   妳找不到回家的路

突然有一個聲音
在耳畔輕輕的告訴妳
不要害怕，有我在這裡 ...

啊！那聲音 ──

   似曾相識的呼息
   急切喚醒百年沈睡的記憶
   頻率相同的心跳
   慌忙地綴補千年夢段的情

而月色不能封堵的，是妳淚的洪流 ──

   而千百年的孤寂，是誰
   一直在燈火闌珊處？

▼ Loranzo's Oil

Stars - Nick Nolte, Susan Sarandon
Dir - George Miller
Year - 1992

This is a movie based on a true story. In 1984, a 6 year old kid Lorenzo Odone was diagnozed to have ALD (Adrenoleukodystrophy), a sex-linked inherited disease only passed from mother to boys. These boys have malfunction in an enzyme which supposely should metabolize long chain fatty acid (LCFA). As a result, they accumulate high content of LCFA in the blood, which somehow strips off (desolves it, I guess) the myelin covering of nerve cells. The myelin is responsible for message transfer along the nerves. Stripping it off results in the loss of communication between different body parts and brain damage.

The syndrome usually appears at age between 5~10, and follows by gradually deterioration of body function (deaf, blind, seizure …), with inevitable death in 2 years.

Lorenzo’s parents, Augusto and Michaela, tried their best to save their boy. They put him in a trial experimental diet conducted by the best ALD expert in USA but to no avail. They decided to “educate’ themselves to find the cure. Without any medical background, they started from basic biochemistry, and read hundreds of paper/articals in the library. They even organized the first world-wide ALD symposium, gathering all ALD experts and participated in every discussions. With tremendous effort, they finally found some oil to reduce the LCFA content to half. They kept doing research, and found another oil to reduce the LCFA to normal level, thus completely stop the further development of the disease.

It is really amazing to see that, a disease considered by all scientists/doctors around the world as non-curable, but was found to be possible to cure by people without any medical background. Their findings not only have saved lives of many young ALD boys, but also make those boys able to live a normal life.

【Dreaming by】

Break up a gray dream you long hold tight
One day you wake up in the midnight
With open eyes you see someone nearby
Beyond obsession beyond love,
the missing link of life

Look back the way you came, hundred years flashed by
Shined with the dim moon light you start to cry
Hundred years --- of wondering why
who --- is always standing by?

◆ Journey to Ixtlan

- The lessons of Don Juan (1972 by Carlos Castaneda)

Book –

This book is part of the tutorial records of Castaneda when he searched for internal knowledge from an Indian nagual Don Juan. By teaching Castaneda the knowledge of some Yaqui indians, Don Juan helped to explore the beauty of an inner world of human nature which is not known to most of us.

Karma –

Starting from my younger age, I couldn’t stop thinking the meaning of life, and the nature of being existence. I suffered a very long period of frantic and aimless search, without even knowing what I was looking for. Religion, traditional Chinese culture, arts, and older people around were all helpless. I was very lonely.

In the summer of 1980, I found a Chinese version of this book from a pile of discount books in a bookstore I visited quite often since childhood. I brought it home for 50 cents, without the knowledge that it’s gonna change my entire life. I didn’t apprehend most of the topics in this book when I first read it, but simply hunted by the beauty of unknown and the ultimate freedom described by Don Juan. In the following couple of years I kept reading it in a frequency of at least twice ~ three times per year, and by comparing with my life experience, every time I caught a little more about what Don Juan was saying. Most of my friends to whom I showed this book worried that I was gonna go as insane as the crazy Indian Don Juan. But I knew clearly that it’s the way I sooner or later had to head for. Written on the first page by myself is “This is a book for me only”. I later realized that it’s inevitable to be lonely when you consider the searching for inner freedom as your journey.